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memory lane monday

Join in on the fun – this week’s theme is about when you found out you were expecting your first baby :-)

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My first son was one of those “pleasent surprises” for my husband and I. We weren’t expecting him, hadn’t planned for him, and really didn’t think we’d have kids for a few more years.

So, I was chatting with a co-worker and told her about how bad I was feeling. In the course of that talk I realized I was late. I still really didn’t think too much about it. I didn’t even tell hubbs that I was getting a test, because I really didn’t think it would say I was pregnant.

I felt so sick in the store. I didn’t think I’d make it through. But, I kept telling myself it’s all in my head. I’m thinking so hard about it that I’m MAKING myself ill. I got a weird feeling in my heart. This weird pull and tug of “maybe I am…how cool would that be?” and “oh gosh, i hope i’m not.”

I could hardly get out of the car and up to the room fast enough. I wizzed by my husband, who was in the computer room, took the first test. I still remember how hot my skin was. My heart was racing. I felt like I was going to be hugging the toilet soon!

Pacing back and forth, my husband noticed and asked if I was okay. I told him, yes…fine. I tried to wait the two minutes, but just couldn’t. I slowly walked towards the test about to pass out…I glanced down…two lines. Two lines! TWO LINES!

I was in shock! I was giddy. I was scared. I was about to laugh. I RAN to my husband – huge nervous smile on my face – and held out the test. LOL Great way to break it to him, right?

We both sat there with nervous smiles on our faces. Disbelief. Laughing. Freaking out. Talking about what this all meant. I took one more test and, of course it was positive. It was the strangest night. I had the most mixed emotions I had felt in all my life. My husband was positive this was a great thing. He had no doubts, no real fears, no real reversations. Just plain joy.

But, I was scared. I was nervous. I wasn’t sure what to think or feel. It was all new to me. I was afraid to tell my family. Afraid to tell my manager and co-workers. Afraid of fiances, working situations…etc.

In the same breath, I was excited, happy, thrilled, over-joyed, excited to think about this little baby growing inside of me! Isn’t it strange how you can feel such conflicting emotions all at the same time?

Little did I know how reading those two lines on that stick could change my life forever. :-)

I’ll never forget that time in my life…such a special, exciting, and scary time….cooking my first little one in my growing belly :-)

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