I don’t think I could be any more grateful for my life, love, family, God, and my fighting body than I am tonight. And I’m a pretty grateful person.
I just feel so wrapped in the arms of love tonight. I’ve got so much gratitude in my heart that far exceeds the hardship and pain that I and have experienced in my life.
I don’t have all the answers as to why I’m able to live in such a deep place of gratitude and joy and peace even in the middle of tremendous pain and hardship and disabling symptoms in my body – but, I know some of it…
I can say is that a big part for me is the love of family and my relationship with Jesus, knowing Him in a way, ever since I was a little girl, (without religion or man screwing it up) that gives me strength and supernatural joy.
I also believe, for my own situation, that coming to a place of acceptance of my health, and my limitations in my body, has been a force for good in my life and that force for good has brought me to a place of peace and contentment for where I’m at, and where my life might always be.
That’s not to say that I don’t work towards more healing, and that I don’t wish for a healthier body and mind. But it is to say that I am not fighting against my reality right now like I used to, and for me, at this point in my life, that has given me a deep sense of peace.
I’m just going to bed with a happy heart tonight and for that I’m supremely grateful.
Here are three things I’m grateful for today
Number one – the extremely oppressive heat finally breaking enough that we were able to get out as a family and enjoy nature on a walk.
Number two – having a good laugh with my dear friend Claudia tonight over our instant messenger chats.
Number three – a delicious lunch treat from panda express in which I enjoyed orange chicken, white rice, and Rangoon. Oh, and a refreshing fountain Coke, which always makes me happy when I splurge in that way.
Then God said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so. Genesis :NIV
So, as I lay my head down to rest tonight, I pray for dreams from heaven, renewing of body, and a peace for my mind. I wish the same for you.
- I wish you knew (a poem)